No joy

…and there it went
please please no face no breathe no breathe
please don’t breathe no no joy no joy no joy no joy please
eat that smile right off a face your face
no joy
only only eat stuff that grin down down your neck

no more eat no more breathe
breathe don’t breathe please don’t breathe
no joy precious joy no joy
eat that smile right off a face your face
no joy only only eat stuff that grin down down your neck
no more eat no more breathe breathe don’t breathe please don’t breathe
…and so it goes

this is going to kill me

The plan was to drink until the pain was over.. But what’s worse, The pain or the hangover?

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today is going to be tough.

but i made a plan.

wake up -> go to job interview -> go to work -> fuck myself up -> hopefully pass out and not remember any of it -> next day

some time in the next hour, i’ll figure a plan out for tomorrow.

ah, the life of depression.

goodnight, moon

Maybe not eating or sleeping is better

Life tends hound me by proving mine is like one huge shepard tone.
Three fucking beats dropping slowly one by one, every now and then one randomly jumping back up, but only to perpetuate the illusion it just keeps tumbling down.

Mistakes are a part of my life, but I swear if the stress doesn’t kill me in the next few weeks something else will. To the few people trying to keep in contact with me I appologise for being unreachable.

no words

I feel lost inside myself.

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Aim for the face. I don’t want mine anymore.

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Hello. My name is Ella.

Cocaine is a hell of a drug

HEY THE SUNSHINE, HEY THE SUN IS SHINING… fuck that shit.

Fascist Symbols in the US

The fasces is an ancient symbol of authority and power from Roman times. Below is a picture of a Roman lictor carrying a fasces. the elm whips could be removed from the bundle and used to punish, the ax could be used to execute.

Just a random off the wall bunch of facts.
But let me guess, your life is good and you’re much too busy to ask questions. Aren’t you.

done with words, I’ll keep using my camera

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